I’ll be ready

I don't know who they see I'm guessing it's me, but I would never be like them? I'm just passing through it has to true. They don't know how it feels the way it peels it's always there my foe, the black crow it brings such woe. I'm tired of filling that hole it burns... Continue Reading →

Despite the woe

I want that fire to burn, burn bright every day every night despite the woe burn that snow ignite with twice the might. That's crazy right? Bright flames burn out. Maybe the dim glow of a fire is what it's all about. The highest highs and the lowest lows, that's not my life prose. Find... Continue Reading →

What’s the opposite of shame?

I want control, don't we all, I know what makes me whole, but it means I lose complete control, lose my mind, lose my senses. I think Perls meant something else, he meant abandon my ego, and I say admire the ones that do. Be still, be silent, stop trying, just surrender until the ticker... Continue Reading →

From hospitals to mountains

First day of the grueling but spectacular trek to Everest Base Camp. The first time I booked this trip I relapsed on drugs just days prior to my departure. I overdosed and went to hospital. It was incredibly disappointing. Worst of all I lost all confidence in my ability to recover. Managing my black and... Continue Reading →

Deep shallows

Usually our hearts cry and eyes remain dry but this wasn't why, in deep shallows of tears I drowned, don't ask how, there was no ease now, just fear and anger. I know you know suffering, and defeat, you're tired of trying to fill that void it's left us destroyed, am I right? I don't... Continue Reading →

Are you ok?

1 in 5 Australians are affected by mental illness, yet many don't ask for help. We're encouraged to talk about mental health, yet so few share their story. There's still strong judgment and stigma out there. Are you ok? That's a good start, it's become a mainstream conversation, but do people actually feel comfortable sharing... Continue Reading →


I'm pulled backwards, will I continue to berate myself for making a mistake? For allowing the stake to fall in the storm. I should have known better! I'm an idiot! A failure! Or do I pick it up, drive the stake back into the mud. Yes I relapsed, yes I'm not okay, yes I shouldn't... Continue Reading →

Walk with the wise

Walk with the wise and become wise, walk with fools and you fall. Fall so low a stone wall is all you'll know. Choose my friends wisely I did not do. Foolishly I did not believe in powerlessness either, not anymore, I want to have control don't we all, but you see I lost complete... Continue Reading →

Heart on my sleeve

I was out so far this time, feelings of deep blue I was harbouring, that's what I was trying to kill but then there was excitement and fear of being caught in a tide. It's so strange the beauty and pain, it tore my heart out again and again so why do I still feel... Continue Reading →

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